What can you do if you feel ugly, ageing, have two missing teeth on your front bottom row, live in a?

dilapidated flat. battle long term mental health problems,, like borderline personality disorder. also have very low self esteem, and are very clingy and possessive. im 29~ how am i supposed to find a nice girl to love. somebody nice, when im in the thick of dealing with these draining problems? i think it will never happen. ive never had friends or a girlfriend..now ive been diagnosed with bpd, i await treatment and therapy. but i live a very lonely, solitary, isolated life...i also have racing thoughts that make me feel disorganised and muddled. also when i go out i suffer from dissacotiation... anyone got any views about this question? much appreciated